Today was another wonderful day...until I realized that I've fallen victim to the SORE THROAT *gasp*!! Ah, gosh, on top of THAT, I stayed up last night until 2 AM, studying and finishing up my homework, thanks to my recent procrastination~! Horrible! Just completely and utterly horrible!

Besides that, I accidentally left my glasses in my other book bag, along with my wallet with my college ID, debit card, money, etc!! Gahh~

Scratch it. It's a horrible bad-luck day for dreaya...

But then~ I turned to Chris for help XD I cried out, "Chrissss~! Please, buy me lunch! I thought I was going to DIE if you didn't show up for school!"

Him: =___= "...sure."

Chris is always so awesome :) He's too nice, actually =___=" I remembered one time, I didn't have money to print out some important documents for History class (I printed the WRONG ones from home!!), and Chris was the one who decided to pay for my papers :O Chris was the one who took me and Shayne out to the mall, eat out at Carl's Jr, and go to Dinu to play videogames! Chris was the one who paid for my lunch today, who gave me a pen to borrow when my stupid pen ran out of ink! Chris decided to ditch class when I told him I didn't have my glasses so I can read the board from a 50-ft radius!! TT____TT Chris is sooo nice~!

So, I told him: "I'll pay you GREEN CASH on Friday! XD"

Him: =____= "..."

...Then again, I knew I've alarmed shawty and them because I went out with him and Shayne, a girl being alone with two guys, on that Saturday. dreaya had the most funnest time, eating out and playing video games with them. We didn't do anything but I understand. It's bad for a girl to be alone with them.

Even so...Chris and Shayne are good people; they've been really good to me, honestly.

I told them I can't go to Dinu with them next time.

They understand.

...I guess movies do lie, huh? When a girl goes out with her guy friends, no one really criticizes her for that. But when compared to real life, it's wrong.

Not that I blame people.

...Why am I sad?

...I don't know. Lol. It's just not fair.

Have I disappointed everyone? Life has always disappointed me, so...

Lol. JJ called last night, Friend.

I was so happy when JJ called.

But that didn't mean anything much.

Everything just happened for a moment.

And lasted just enough for that moment, that time...

...Friend, we've changed.

Sometimes...we get so selfish, we just want more of what other people can't give us; sometimes, we just don't want to listen to what others have to say; sometimes, we love those who really do care for us; sometimes, we feel like we should turn our backs on the whole world that turned the blind eye on our suffering too. Sometimes, I get so angry because I can't be with the people I want to be with, because we're not the same; we're not the same gender, same social class, same race...

What has the world come to?

What do I want?

...I don't want to pretend to be someone I'm not, anymore, people.

This is who I really am. I want to be reckless; take chances.

...You know what?

...Forget it.

...I'm different now.

...My guy friends are good people.

...And we didn't do anything wrong.

We're just friends.

How many friends of mine actually told me that they were going to buy me my lunch because I felt my wallet at home? How many would ditch lecture class just because I forgot my glasses? How many would even notice and lend me their pen even though I didn't even say a word about it?

...I love my friends.

And yes, shawty, hobo, jojo...I love you guys too.

I guess nothing can really justify the fact for my rebellious act.


-dreaya